Willful, probably. Or you're just not explaining yourself clearly. You're throwing words out like sedomasochism just for kicks, when it's got nothing to do with that at all.

The amends are of my own accord. The therapy isn't. I do my best to balance that out. You do what you do because you want to live, and I do what I do because I'm trying to figure out how.

It really helps when people who don't know a damn thing about my life don't judge it, though.